A note

My best friend Michelle and I were talking on an impromptu trip to Seattle, this Whole30 experience for both of us and really gave us a reality check. We have been so blinded about what we were actually consuming that we totally had derailed and were feeling the effects. We are learning that food can be delicious even if it is simple. Not only delicious, but filling and life giving. This Whole30 is a new foundation for the rest of our year. A place where we went back to basics, learned what whole foods are and what to kick out. We are still detoxing and we know it. We have been learning about late night cravings and that we will survive without dessert. We have sat in bakeries/coffee shops & restaurants, just smelling the foods and staring at the wines and wanting to cry. We have passed on the bread, passed on the butter, passed on the fast food. And it has been hard.

I know for me personally, I didn't know I was addicted to food until I started this program. I had no idea how much of my life was dedicated to my next meal. I thought about it all the time... ALL THE TIME. With this program, it has been a painful re-wiring of my brain along with my stomach. Telling myself I will survive without the maple bar on the Friday morning at work. I will survive without chips and cheese dip on football Sunday. 

What we have realized that to make a change, the only thing to do was to be drastic. We are eating. a lot. Like.... whoa... And yes, there are things some might think we shouldn't be having, but we are going by the book. Only following this one philosophy. We aren't counting calories, we aren't worrying about how many almonds/cashews we are having in one sitting. We are changing. 

We will be honest, this has been a painful road. But we are, as Taylor Swift says "out of the woods." We are still moving, still smiling, bodies are saying THANK YOU. THANK YOU. 

Sometimes when others see someone make a drastic change, it is hard to compute. Hard to understand. They want to reach out and say "you don't have to do that, just do this." But it was the last straw. It was the ONLY choice in our eyes. It has been a journey - as we walked the aisles of Trader Joes, sipping sugarless tea or a unsweetened/un-milked americano. And we have come so far. It is the first step to new health, new idea on food, new beginning for the next part of our journey to better health. 

just a note as I go back downstairs to prep my grocery list. :)