November 9th, sitting in my office at home. iTunes on in the background - shuffle mode. Lights dim. House clean. Rain coming down. New flannel shirt and old sweats. Sitting here, thinking about what changed. What happened to make me derail. I mean, I am at a stand still. This runner girl RAN and RAN for weeks, months... and then she stopped. Life happens, right? Isn't that the correct answer to tell those that ask "are you still running?" I am... sort of. Not like I was.
Tonight, I told myself all day I was going to come home, get changed and do 45 minutes of yoga practice. But I got home, and saw the TV and said ..... NAW. And sat down. Tired from the workday, tired from the weekend before. Tired. Am I really that tired? Stomach growls, telling me... we eat here on the couch, remember? So I get a small snack, thinking, I'll eat dinner later.... to only overeat again. AGAIN.
I can't be the only one. Who gets sucked into the tiredness of life, the lie of TV being restful and rejuvenating. Skipping through channels, I wanted too throw the remote and watch the glass shatter.... really... THIS took my time away from my health!?
Okay so I am rambling... but I know I am only saying what a lot of us are thinking.. what a lot of us are doing. The only way I feel I can change is to abandon social media, TV, crap.... CRAP. I mean the only thing going on today on Facebook was people arguing over a cup color.... SERIOUSLY? This took 30 minutes of my hour lunch! What am I doing???
Reality Check this evening... what have I flooded my life with? Why do I stay up past my bedtime surfing Facebook, Pinterest, Instagram only to refresh 10 minutes later to see if anything new happened?? Come on MEGAN.
So I am going to take a hiatus. I just need to take a week or two to clear my head. To try and focus on health, fitness, and maybe finishing a couple good books. Sorry for the non-running/health related post. I just had to get this out.. to those who might be listening. Or maybe just to me. A wake up call to me... I just needed to get it out on something. To see it. To feel it. To embrace it.
Love this and doing the same thing. I took Facebook and Twitter off of my phone. Keeping instagram and blogging because I find things that inspire me on there. Now we start 50 miles to Christmas and this was the time this very blog started! Proud of you for recognizing where what and when things need to be mixed up.
ReplyDeletethank you friend. :) trying to get focused. Got to find a way to make my health and fitness a priority.
DeleteLove this and doing the same thing. I took Facebook and Twitter off of my phone. Keeping instagram and blogging because I find things that inspire me on there. Now we start 50 miles to Christmas and this was the time this very blog started! Proud of you for recognizing where what and when things need to be mixed up.
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